I could hate you

                        I could hate you




you stand over me

pulling  my heart farther into the ground

telling me i cant and i wont and i never will

you tell everyone of my failures

like your proud of them

like there better than what i am

so you parade them around your world

while slowly killing mine

and all the while you have no clue

that i could hate you so much it would hurt

i could never look at you again andd be happy

but i dont

and i wont

and i never will

because i love you

only because i am forced to

only because i want to

only because i do

i could hate you so much i puked

from the hypocrisy

to the way you talk about me

when you think i cant hear

i could hate you

but i cant

and i wont

and i never will

because your my mom